Dad is getting old when i look closer at him. He was sitting next to me. Looking at him so close in person,now i noticed that there are so many 'old ppl freckles' on his handsome face. He looked so tired. both of us were at the hawker stall, drinking carlsberg. He was pouring out his stress in the office coz he has face problems at work. Ppl are talking bad about him for getting anugerah intergriti. the pengarah has scolded him today for an unacceptable reason coz my dad did his work bt still get scolding.
This few days, he came back from work looking so tired. At 1st i was thinking he worried about my things o that i'm angry of him etc. Bt actually, stress from work. i feel bad now after thinking back wat i done to him. i raised my voice talking to him when i was moody.
I guess, there's reason for me getting posted to malacca no matter dad did sumthing behind me or not. i shud be grateful, and i am gradually accepting it. nyway, i will still make my life interesting although i'm in malacca my hometown. I'm starting my responsible as a daughter too.
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
2nd day
today is the 2nd day after knowing my posting.
i still kinda feel abit moody. Mom oso kept on pujuk me. and i 'play temper' wit her. It felt nice to do so. I got to know more n more frens' penempatan. how ridiculous is that that mostly all applied selangor got, except me. so my dad surely did sumthing.Aih...dun wanna mentioned about this d. mom ask me stop asking dad the question becoz he is avoiding. i'm still abit angry.
about noon time, i realised tat i really need to accept the fact coz i cant do much thingsabout it. just live wit wat is given.
a fren told me, 'things happen for a reason'. This was wat i told many friends b4 this. sumtimes i used this to comfort them, and cant believe that ppl using this sentence to comfort and advise me back. its true, i do believe that thingshappen for a reason.
i still kinda feel abit moody. Mom oso kept on pujuk me. and i 'play temper' wit her. It felt nice to do so. I got to know more n more frens' penempatan. how ridiculous is that that mostly all applied selangor got, except me. so my dad surely did sumthing.Aih...dun wanna mentioned about this d. mom ask me stop asking dad the question becoz he is avoiding. i'm still abit angry.
about noon time, i realised tat i really need to accept the fact coz i cant do much thingsabout it. just live wit wat is given.
a fren told me, 'things happen for a reason'. This was wat i told many friends b4 this. sumtimes i used this to comfort them, and cant believe that ppl using this sentence to comfort and advise me back. its true, i do believe that thingshappen for a reason.
21st = my posting
21st was the day i know my posting.
On 20th sunday, i slept quite early and kinda excited to know posting the next day.
I opened my eyes, its 8 sumthing, 'today know posting'...this appeared in my head. quickly wake up and 'terknock' my head against the wal....ouch.....switch on the pc, brushed my teeth, waiting for the window to start. Then i logged into internet n to the website required. n wat the heck...ntg still on it. damn...so i continue watching my series.
until bout 9 sumthing i called my dad to ask for the kpm phone number. post the number on fb...every coursemate so excited, n kept on updating info bout posting on fb and msn. bout 10 sumthing, kehlee got through the line and managed to ask about her school. so lucky of her. i tried too...bt really so damn difficult to get through. Then i started to know fren's posting 1 by 1 through fb where they updated their status. i still trying to call and cant get. At lunch time, when my dad came back, he was like 'mei, i know liao'......n well, i got malacca. i went blank totally, duno wat to feel. I dun feel happy o sad. really went blank. Then, my dad kept on asking me want which school, wat i can answer is that, dun ask me 1st, i still canot digest wat i just heard.
At that time, i was like ....my plan are all crushed, how can, i'm going to stuck in malacca for 30 years d....omg!!!!!!!!! i went straight to my dad and question him whether he did sumthing anot....he said no....didnt hv much time to question him coz lunch time was short. my mood really went moody. every1 knows that i'm moody even my mom n my bro. my dad wouldnt talk much with me. he said that night go out eat. i told mom, no mood, ntg gud to celebrate, dun wana eat.
whole afternoon i'm replying post at fb, checking updates of my friend's posting.
At nite, i went out yam cha wit my schoolmates where a few oso teachers. When i arrived, sum of them started to perli me lah...well....after talking to them, i felt so much more better. my friends realised my mood wasnt good because the look on my face. So, the espression of my face really show wat i feel.
Tat nite, there are a few calls and sms from my friends, and i would like to thank them for caring so much about me.
On 20th sunday, i slept quite early and kinda excited to know posting the next day.
I opened my eyes, its 8 sumthing, 'today know posting'...this appeared in my head. quickly wake up and 'terknock' my head against the wal....ouch.....switch on the pc, brushed my teeth, waiting for the window to start. Then i logged into internet n to the website required. n wat the heck...ntg still on it. damn...so i continue watching my series.
until bout 9 sumthing i called my dad to ask for the kpm phone number. post the number on fb...every coursemate so excited, n kept on updating info bout posting on fb and msn. bout 10 sumthing, kehlee got through the line and managed to ask about her school. so lucky of her. i tried too...bt really so damn difficult to get through. Then i started to know fren's posting 1 by 1 through fb where they updated their status. i still trying to call and cant get. At lunch time, when my dad came back, he was like 'mei, i know liao'......n well, i got malacca. i went blank totally, duno wat to feel. I dun feel happy o sad. really went blank. Then, my dad kept on asking me want which school, wat i can answer is that, dun ask me 1st, i still canot digest wat i just heard.
At that time, i was like ....my plan are all crushed, how can, i'm going to stuck in malacca for 30 years d....omg!!!!!!!!! i went straight to my dad and question him whether he did sumthing anot....he said no....didnt hv much time to question him coz lunch time was short. my mood really went moody. every1 knows that i'm moody even my mom n my bro. my dad wouldnt talk much with me. he said that night go out eat. i told mom, no mood, ntg gud to celebrate, dun wana eat.
whole afternoon i'm replying post at fb, checking updates of my friend's posting.
At nite, i went out yam cha wit my schoolmates where a few oso teachers. When i arrived, sum of them started to perli me lah...well....after talking to them, i felt so much more better. my friends realised my mood wasnt good because the look on my face. So, the espression of my face really show wat i feel.
Tat nite, there are a few calls and sms from my friends, and i would like to thank them for caring so much about me.
Saturday, December 19, 2009
21st.......D-day
will 21st b the D-day????....
1st it was 1st dec, then 15th dec, then 17th dec, now its 21st.
it was about posting. WTH, wat are those ppl doin up there........really hope by 21st the result will be out. Every1 (including family n friends) so worried for me. Hmm......
2 more days .........
1st it was 1st dec, then 15th dec, then 17th dec, now its 21st.
it was about posting. WTH, wat are those ppl doin up there........really hope by 21st the result will be out. Every1 (including family n friends) so worried for me. Hmm......
2 more days .........
1st time wit rae n jo at dream box
Today i went to dreambox wit rae, jo n renee. We met up at 11am, checked in and started our singing. haha. it was nice to meet up wit joann after so long. transferred some series to rachel. Then, fred came, (renee's bf)....sang a few chinese songs. when the time ends, our songs of course cant finished. we need to leave. After that, renee went paktor wit her bf, 3 of us went to find a place to sit down n talk. I was carrying a bag n jo said i looked like a student. haha. oh yeah, i do look like 1. ( still dun wanna admit old).....:P......we ordered some drinks and start chattin while facebooking. outside was raining heavily. Heavy until inside the mall almost flooded. actually, this time, didnt really talk much wit rachel. dunno y. next meeting up should chat more.
cant believe that rachel has been working for 5 months already. hmm.....
cant believe that rachel has been working for 5 months already. hmm.....
Thursday, December 3, 2009
1 week at home
today its already 1 week at home....n i still find time is not enuf to use for a day.
hmm.....still doin series marathon...cleaning the house... facebooking....n giving tuition.....
the posting news still hv to wait until mid of dec.....
hmm.....still doin series marathon...cleaning the house... facebooking....n giving tuition.....
the posting news still hv to wait until mid of dec.....
Saturday, November 28, 2009
gemini
GEMINI (Irresistible)
Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Great listeners.
Very Good in the you know where ...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Trustworthy..
Always happy.
Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.
Loves to make out.
Has a beautiful smile.
Generous.
Strong.
THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE..
Nice.
Love is one of a kind.
Great listeners.
Very Good in the you know where ...
Lover not a fighter, but will still knock you out.
Trustworthy..
Always happy.
Loud.
Talkative.
Outgoing VERY FORGIVING.
Loves to make out.
Has a beautiful smile.
Generous.
Strong.
THE MOST IRRESISTIBLE..
Thursday, November 26, 2009
still no news yet...
I'm still in the hostel, packing sambil watching series....so many things to pack. Some of my friends are back. still no news about posting yet. Cant wait to go back 2molo...
Monday, November 16, 2009
Posting....
Still waiting for my posting....everyday there's different news and rumours...bt it seems that those who got borneo already hv earlier notice which is by receiving free air ticket n letters at home....hehe..i'm calling my dad to check it everyday....
nyway, here's my new look...had a hair cut the other day..
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nyway, here's my new look...had a hair cut the other day..
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Thursday, November 12, 2009
Kiss...m
its suppose to be kissm.....kursus induksi sistem saraan malaysia
so boring course...bt it is compulsory for every government servant to attend.
today is the 4th day, n i spent my whole time reading novel...haha...last few days still can concentrate, bt nt today.
oh god, how am i goin to got through this until 24th......its nt js dengar ceramah onli, bt there's assignments and exam.....urgh.....
everyday 8 til 10, 10.30 till 12.30, 2.30 till 4.30.....die...
so boring course...bt it is compulsory for every government servant to attend.
today is the 4th day, n i spent my whole time reading novel...haha...last few days still can concentrate, bt nt today.
oh god, how am i goin to got through this until 24th......its nt js dengar ceramah onli, bt there's assignments and exam.....urgh.....
everyday 8 til 10, 10.30 till 12.30, 2.30 till 4.30.....die...
picnic of 1 guy n 7 gals...
on last weekend, the gals, us planned a picnic......it was fun.....whole day busy with activities non stop till nite.....
makan, banana boat, kite, swim, makan....syok..
oh ya, we prepared some food too......hehe....wanna see photos, plz go to my facebook
makan, banana boat, kite, swim, makan....syok..
oh ya, we prepared some food too......hehe....wanna see photos, plz go to my facebook
Tuesday, November 10, 2009
its over....
its the end of 5 1/2 years....all assignments submitted....ntg left....left waiting for result n posting...
every1, everyday asking did u get the call?...started wit wat number???
lecs kept on saying we will get borneo....showing us the photos n videos of the condition of borneo.....
so, frends, be ready.....the news is gonna cum out anytime soon......
every1, everyday asking did u get the call?...started wit wat number???
lecs kept on saying we will get borneo....showing us the photos n videos of the condition of borneo.....
so, frends, be ready.....the news is gonna cum out anytime soon......
Tuesday, November 3, 2009
Deakin nite 2009
Its been 1 year since the last Deakin Nite that my college organized.
THis time its the IPTB's turn. Too bad, nt many ppl went, if not, it would be more fun. This time every 1 look difrent compared wit the last time.....how to say difrent leh...hmm...just hv a look at the photos.
would like to compare and contrast last year n tis year...
last year :
this year:
overall, wat i can say is that there are good n bad lah....this is every1 1st time...so, dun expect too much...learn frm experience then....
THis time its the IPTB's turn. Too bad, nt many ppl went, if not, it would be more fun. This time every 1 look difrent compared wit the last time.....how to say difrent leh...hmm...just hv a look at the photos.
would like to compare and contrast last year n tis year...
last year :
- too kelam kabut
- the opening ceremonry were last minute
- jokes by emcee
- hall decorated very beautiful
- food not very nice
- backdrop nicer
- more interesting title to be won
- more meaningful slogan/theme
this year:
- food nice
- program nicely organize n very systematic...instead too systematic
- backdrop nt very nice
- not meriah enuf<>
- <>only lucky draws n prom king n queen nia
overall, wat i can say is that there are good n bad lah....this is every1 1st time...so, dun expect too much...learn frm experience then....
Saturday, October 31, 2009
Final, n it gets worst
Its coming to final already...what is happening around here???....
Firstly, it started wit my classmates....n boycott is happening in my class...n i dun giv it a damn, i did do anything wrong....its they themselves.....
Now, comes to my cari forum friends....its not about boycotting now...its about some misunderstanding that lead to certain's ppl suffering o not happy now.....isit wat i said..???...
can't i hv the right to say no n reject??? and to protect my friends....
it sucks now
Firstly, it started wit my classmates....n boycott is happening in my class...n i dun giv it a damn, i did do anything wrong....its they themselves.....
Now, comes to my cari forum friends....its not about boycotting now...its about some misunderstanding that lead to certain's ppl suffering o not happy now.....isit wat i said..???...
can't i hv the right to say no n reject??? and to protect my friends....
it sucks now
Thursday, October 29, 2009
assignments
Although i went for quite many photo shooting on weekend....bt nt forgetting my assigmnets...today had a presentation....now left 2 more presetnation n 1 more workbook to go....cant wait for this to finish......
Photo shooting
Firstly it started out when lee hoong asked me wana go for photo shooting anot....FOC....the photographer taking us as model, bt they dun pay us, n we take their photos, n we dun pay them too...so its a win-win situation.....its kinda cool n fun to go for these photo shooting thingy....although i'm not sum1 who holds a dslr camera....
here are some photos...
1st shooting by CE Tan
2nd shooting by Andrew
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3rd shooting by Leo
for more photos, go to my facebook....
here are some photos...
1st shooting by CE Tan
2nd shooting by Andrew
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3rd shooting by Leo
for more photos, go to my facebook....
Wednesday, October 21, 2009
Traditional Dance competition
Last saturday, amy asked me whether wanna join this competition anot....bt i said, i dunno how to dance lor....nyway, WTH....for fun onli ma...not say really wanna win 1st prize....so, we started our practise on last wednesday....lauweh...1st few days, the ankle n knee all bruises....coz asyik kneel n up n kneel n up....
everyday practise, sumtimes, noon n nite practise....nyway, last nite was the competition....n our group got NUMBER ONE!!!!.....hha...like that oso can win....dance tat time banyak salah lagi....nyway, we had fun lah.....sweet memories before i leave the college....1st time had this kind of dance...n wear this baju....:)
Siao lang gathering...1st anniversary
Below are some photos of my consider ' last gathering' with the friends tat i knew in penang. CARI forum friends. Its been 1 year since i know them. recalling back, the 1st time we met, all so awkward. N thinking back, so daring to go n meet up net friends. nyway, luckily all of them are normal...haha...i'm not saying 'u' all not normal hor...just abit siao nia....
had a great day tat day.........take care friends..
had a great day tat day.........take care friends..
azrul's wedding...
The bride , leha n me
pengantin lelaki n perempuan, pengapit lelaki, n groom's dad...yup a chinese
n azrul n leha finally married
with the ji mui's
The day was hot like sauna.....
pengantin lelaki n perempuan, pengapit lelaki, n groom's dad...yup a chinese
n azrul n leha finally married
with the ji mui's
The day was hot like sauna.....
photos of hanging out wit pris
The price.......
pris's food
my pasta
i luv this pic the most...very yeng lor!!!
It was great to have u here for the last weekend....muaks...njoy myself very much.....
Tuesday, October 20, 2009
fun on last weekend.....
Had lotsa fun on last deepavali weekend. hehe...
On Thursday, went to sing k wit huing sin, then sent her to bus station which was like ' she went up onli, the bus jalan' ...phew...luckily in time....
On friday, pris came and had fun, went to TGI Fridays, camwhore at the dancing posters....haha...weird n really 38....nyway, pris, thanks for the juice....
On saturday morning, went for photo shooting...really had fun leh....too bad kq nt wit us...aih....dinner time, had gatheirng with the siao lang bang....found a new place...SUNSET....it reminds me of perhentian island.....
On Sunday, sleeping, n practise dancing whole day....
On monday, another session of photo shooting....didnt really had so much fun this time....dunno y....
well, tats the activities tat i had during last weekend.........fun fun fun...although assignments damn lotsa
On Thursday, went to sing k wit huing sin, then sent her to bus station which was like ' she went up onli, the bus jalan' ...phew...luckily in time....
On friday, pris came and had fun, went to TGI Fridays, camwhore at the dancing posters....haha...weird n really 38....nyway, pris, thanks for the juice....
On saturday morning, went for photo shooting...really had fun leh....too bad kq nt wit us...aih....dinner time, had gatheirng with the siao lang bang....found a new place...SUNSET....it reminds me of perhentian island.....
On Sunday, sleeping, n practise dancing whole day....
On monday, another session of photo shooting....didnt really had so much fun this time....dunno y....
well, tats the activities tat i had during last weekend.........fun fun fun...although assignments damn lotsa
Tuesday, October 13, 2009
crazy assignments season!!!
Today is already 14th oct, the course is ending on 6th nov...so,there's about less than a month to go, and there's 6 assignments to go....its really crazy lah....
There's no final instructions from lecturers about how to do the lesson....wanna do, oso dunno how to do, scare will do wrongly...if start late, at the end will be rushing like hell and i definitely hate this feeling....
Go kuliah oso cant do much things except if lecturer have lectures to give us, if not better let us back hostel n do our own assignments then...
i'm not grumbling here, just giving suggestions....
Line in the hostel sucks like hell too.......grrr.....cant facebook, cant email, cant google, cant msn, and cant update antivirus too....
There's no final instructions from lecturers about how to do the lesson....wanna do, oso dunno how to do, scare will do wrongly...if start late, at the end will be rushing like hell and i definitely hate this feeling....
Go kuliah oso cant do much things except if lecturer have lectures to give us, if not better let us back hostel n do our own assignments then...
i'm not grumbling here, just giving suggestions....
Line in the hostel sucks like hell too.......grrr.....cant facebook, cant email, cant google, cant msn, and cant update antivirus too....
Saturday, October 10, 2009
marry , posting, work
Kahwin...my coursemates are getting married. there's 2 chinese married d. 1 malay married last year. There's another 1 gonna hv their ceremony nx week. This dude, azrul...really still cant believe tat he is goin to get marry soon...(actually, he's married lah...registered d).
Me?....marry, not in my mind at the moment. Just cant wait to know where i'll get posted. People been asking me, why dun i apply malacca.
1) not easy lor
2) heard that malacca is full.no more vacancies
3) no freedom
4) i'm stil young, longing for freedom...although would like to stay at home which can really save alot
5) go out n see the outside world
Watever it is, marry is totally not in my mind at the moment.....just njoy the early adulthood which will end soon, n the late 20's wil come eventually.....urgh....'stop thinking, stop thinking'....
friendzz......njoy life while u can....everyboday has onli once 23 years old.....cheers
Me?....marry, not in my mind at the moment. Just cant wait to know where i'll get posted. People been asking me, why dun i apply malacca.
1) not easy lor
2) heard that malacca is full.no more vacancies
3) no freedom
4) i'm stil young, longing for freedom...although would like to stay at home which can really save alot
5) go out n see the outside world
Watever it is, marry is totally not in my mind at the moment.....just njoy the early adulthood which will end soon, n the late 20's wil come eventually.....urgh....'stop thinking, stop thinking'....
friendzz......njoy life while u can....everyboday has onli once 23 years old.....cheers
yeah.....
yeah...its the end of internship....dun hv to wake up at 6am in the morning d....at nite still need to sleep early, coz if not, i'll be like a dead gal nx morning ....n keeps on yawning during lecture...
anyway....yesterday was the last day of internship, n of course, celebration!!!
after class, back hostel, discuss got wat present, took a nap, till 3pm....time to go redbox....ki siao...cam whore, singing, dancing (coz got the big room)...haha....photos are available in facebook.
After that, we went to kim gary makan...yummy yummy.....then toilet...cam whore again...shitty, all my frends so 'not tall' n tat makes me giant....hmm...
photos photos photos....in facebook....
cheers..ciaoz..........
anyway....yesterday was the last day of internship, n of course, celebration!!!
after class, back hostel, discuss got wat present, took a nap, till 3pm....time to go redbox....ki siao...cam whore, singing, dancing (coz got the big room)...haha....photos are available in facebook.
After that, we went to kim gary makan...yummy yummy.....then toilet...cam whore again...shitty, all my frends so 'not tall' n tat makes me giant....hmm...
photos photos photos....in facebook....
cheers..ciaoz..........
Friday, October 2, 2009
blind man
I went to work my part time after school today. When i passed by the ping hua chinese school around near the gurney area....i stop because the traffic light was red. So, i just look around, n i saw 1 old blind man , cant estimate his age...he was trying to cross the road. He was holding his tongkat....n bringing it below waist level, looks like trying to touch whether is anything in front of him. I really wonder how will he cross the road like that when there were so many cars infront of him n he wont know when will have no car. I did think of turning on my emergency signal, n cross over to help him.....bt i cant, coz other cars will surely honk at me....plan B, park my car at the side, n cross to help him....i didnt, coz i cant cut into another lane.....lame...i told myself, tat was a very lame excuses, if really got heart, will go n help him. I saw a few motorist looking at him which is quite near to him already, just looking at there, did not help him.... after that, my traffic light turn green d, n i cant patah balik, if i wanna patah balik, i have to turn 1 big round.
regret...........this is wat we learn from our moral after so many years of education.......
regret...........this is wat we learn from our moral after so many years of education.......
Sunday, September 27, 2009
the last 2 weeks....
Owh....its 27th sept 2009 sunday.....i'm gonna go through another 2 weeks of internship, 1 more observation from lecturer and 1 more from supervising teacher, n tats all..the end....yippee
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
My hols....
I think this is the quickest holiday that i have ever experience....although its 1 week...bt it goes so fast until i dun even have enuf time to relax....anyhow, i get to
Had a great wit rae n renee....didnt spend enuf time together lah...nx time lah rae....
finally saw peki........comment later...
great...this holiday my berat badan sure naik 1.....tak berani go n weigh......
Njoyed myself...bt now its time for assignments........
- sing k and meet up wit pris
- hang out wit rae n renee
- hang out wit kq n peki
- ate satay celup twice
- ate the chicken rice ball, wan tan mee, n many more foods
Had a great wit rae n renee....didnt spend enuf time together lah...nx time lah rae....
finally saw peki........comment later...
great...this holiday my berat badan sure naik 1.....tak berani go n weigh......
Njoyed myself...bt now its time for assignments........
Friday, September 18, 2009
Another 3 weeks over
yep, another 3 weeks of internship just over.....n i'm back at home again for holiday 1 week. raya holiday. So, now, i'm gonna enjoy my holiday while doing assignments at home...damn lotsa assignments...aih...sien......
dun care...watever comes, just cope, just face it, n just njoy it.....
got back yesterday...
Thats all
dun care...watever comes, just cope, just face it, n just njoy it.....
got back yesterday...
- yam cha wit few friends d
- today, ate my wan tan mee....hehe
- bought the stationary that i need to buy n 4got to buy last holiday
- go jonker
- watch movie wit family
- try to finish as many assignments as possible
- try to finish a few series too
- meet up wit friends
Thats all
Thursday, September 10, 2009
chris daughtry and nickelback
These 2 songs kept on playing on my mind since these few weeks
no suprises from chris daughtry
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
i'd come for you - nickelback
Just One more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it
I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing
My mind was closing, now I'm believing
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now this I vow
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you
Yes I'd come for you, no one but you,
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you
no suprises from chris daughtry
I've practiced this for hours, gone round and round
And now I think that I've got it all down
And as I say it louder I love how it sounds
Cause I'm not taking the easy way out
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
It came out like a river once I let it out
When I thought that I wouldn't know how
Held onto it forever just pushing it down
Felt so good to let go of it now
Not wrapping this in ribbons
Shouldn't have to give a reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
There's nothing here in this heart left to borrow
There's nothing here in this soul left to say
Don't be surprised when we hate this tomorrow
God know we tried to find an easier way
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
That's why this comes as no, as no surprise
If I could see the future and how this plays out
I bet it's better than where we are now
But after going through this, it's easier to see the reason why
It's no surprise I won't be here tomorrow
I can't believe that I stayed till today
Yeah you and I will be a tough act to follow
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
The kiss goodnight, it comes with me
Both wrong and right, our memories
The whispering before we sleep, just one more thing that you can't keep
Our favorite place we used to go
The warm embrace that no one knows
The loving look that's left your eyes
But I know in time we'll find this was no surprise
i'd come for you - nickelback
Just One more moment, that's all that's needed.
Like wounded soldiers in need of healing.
Time to be honest, this time I'm bleeding
Please don't dwell on it, cause I didn't mean it
I cant believe I said I'd lay our love on the ground
But it doesn't matter cause I've made it up forgive me now
Everyday I spend away my souls inside out
Gotta be someway that I can make it up to you now, somehow.
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
I was blindfolded, but now I'm seeing
My mind was closing, now I'm believing
I finally know what just what it means to let someone in
To see the side of me that no one does or ever will
So if your ever lost and find yourself all alone
I'd search forever just to bring you home,
Here and now this I vow
By now you'd know that I'd come for you
No one but you, yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
You know I'd always come for you
Yes I'd come for you, no one but you,
Yes I'd come for you
But only if you told me to
And I'd fight for you
I'd lie, it's true
Give my life for you
You know I'd always come for you
No matter what gets in my way
As long as there's still life in me
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
I'd crawl across this world for you
Do anything you want me to
No matter what, remember you know I'll always come for you
You know I'll always come for you
Wednesday, September 9, 2009
3 more months
Finally, left another 3 more months to grad.....wah...really cant wait. Flashing back the memories in college no matter in ipoh or penang, i did have an unforgetable moments, known loads frends, met loads of people from everywhere......
I will surely make full use of this 3 more months.....to do sumthing even crazier, or u can say sumthing that is worth a try even once in a lifetime.....*chuckles*
I will surely make full use of this 3 more months.....to do sumthing even crazier, or u can say sumthing that is worth a try even once in a lifetime.....*chuckles*
So into these songs recently
Don't Forget lyrics
Songwriters: Jonas, Joseph; Jonas, Kevin Ii; Jonas, Nicholas; Lovato, Demi;Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all
And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us
Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don?t forget
This Is Me lyrics
I've always been the kind of girl
that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
what i've got to say
But i have this dream
bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know, to let you know...
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
where you're the shining star
Even though it seems,
like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself,
it's the only way...
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
You're the voice i hear inside my head
The reason that im singin'
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece i need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
(You're the missing piece i need the song inside on me)
This is me, Yeah
(You're the voice i hear inside my head, the reason that im singing)
Now i've found, who i am
Theres no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
Songwriters: Jonas, Joseph; Jonas, Kevin Ii; Jonas, Nicholas; Lovato, Demi;Did you forget that I was even alive?
Did you forget everything we ever had?
Did you forget, did you forget about me?
Did you regret ever standing by my side?
Did you forget we were feeling inside?
Now I'm left to forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it
So now I guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ever holding my hand?
Never again, please don't forget, don't forget
We had it all, we were just about to fall
Even more in love, than we were before
I won't forget, I won't forget about us
But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song you can't forget it
Somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong
Our love is like a song, you can't forget it at all
And at last all the pictures have been burned
And all the past is just a lesson that we've learned
I won't forget, please don?t forget us
Somewhere we went wrong
Our love is like a song but you won't sing along
You've forgotten about us
Don?t forget
This Is Me lyrics
I've always been the kind of girl
that hid my face
So afraid to tell the world
what i've got to say
But i have this dream
bright inside of me
I'm gonna let it show, it's time
To let you know, to let you know...
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
Do you know what it's like
to feel so in the dark
To dream about a life
where you're the shining star
Even though it seems,
like it's too far away
I have to believe in myself,
it's the only way...
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
You're the voice i hear inside my head
The reason that im singin'
I need to find you
I gotta find you
You're the missing piece i need
The song inside of me
I need to find you
I gotta find you
This is real, this is me
Im exactly where im supposed to be now
Gonna let the light shine on me
Now i've found, who i am
There's no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
(You're the missing piece i need the song inside on me)
This is me, Yeah
(You're the voice i hear inside my head, the reason that im singing)
Now i've found, who i am
Theres no way to hold it in
No more hiding who i wanna be
This is me
Miley, Demi, Taylor
They are Miley Cyrus, Demi Lovato, Taylor Swift.....country singers....they are younger than me....bt i just love their songs.....been keeping myself up to date with their stuff.
I belive every know who is Miley n Taylor...i just wanna talk about demi lovato.
I watched camp rock, n didnt really took notice about this gal, coz she looks so ordinary until i surf youtube about miley cyrus latest song, Send it on featuring jonas brother, demi, selena gomez.....nice song....all are disney stars.....musical talented
When i watched the mv for send it on, i still dun recognise demi, so, i went on searching for her other songs, then, i only realised that she is the gal frm camp rock...let me show u her pic
in camp rock
When i found the new her
Aint she look difrent???? pretty....
I belive every know who is Miley n Taylor...i just wanna talk about demi lovato.
I watched camp rock, n didnt really took notice about this gal, coz she looks so ordinary until i surf youtube about miley cyrus latest song, Send it on featuring jonas brother, demi, selena gomez.....nice song....all are disney stars.....musical talented
When i watched the mv for send it on, i still dun recognise demi, so, i went on searching for her other songs, then, i only realised that she is the gal frm camp rock...let me show u her pic
in camp rock
When i found the new her
Aint she look difrent???? pretty....
Tuesday, September 8, 2009
sorry bloggie
dear bloggie,
Sorry for not having to update u for a long time d. Been busy, no time, n 4gotten about u....
Sometimes, cant think of sumting to write....so just leave it then......from now on, will blog about stuff like music o movie, even though there's ntg to blog about....
Sorry for not having to update u for a long time d. Been busy, no time, n 4gotten about u....
Sometimes, cant think of sumting to write....so just leave it then......from now on, will blog about stuff like music o movie, even though there's ntg to blog about....
Friday, August 28, 2009
stop the time....
its saturday ady!!! urghh.....dun wanna go back can anot....aih....
nyways, at least this holiday, i've met up wit ppls i supposed to meet up which are friends friends and friends.....
dunno y, although this holiday is 1 week, its stil not enuf for me to use....rushing for assignments, goin out wit friends, no time for my series, sleeps oso not really enuf....hmm.....time getting lesser each day....i need to kejar masa d.....
nyways, at least this holiday, i've met up wit ppls i supposed to meet up which are friends friends and friends.....
dunno y, although this holiday is 1 week, its stil not enuf for me to use....rushing for assignments, goin out wit friends, no time for my series, sleeps oso not really enuf....hmm.....time getting lesser each day....i need to kejar masa d.....
Monday, August 24, 2009
tat feeling came back.....
Sis came back on Saturday.
Last nite had a wonderful day wit my family, it feels like back to the old days, when 3 of us still in schooling time. Yesterday, every1 woke up early 7 sumthing, follow parents go for breakfast, dimsum.....then, came back do own stuff, mom got tuition, dad went out yam cha wit friends....nite dinner time, about 7 sumthing, we went to eat asam ikan pari, then to grandma house, then go buy supper wan tan mee....although we didnt eat very expensive or very ho liao...bt i like that kind of feeling when all of us were togehter, got talk got laugh......it made my day....
bt this morning, sis went back to kl d....got to work.....
Last nite had a wonderful day wit my family, it feels like back to the old days, when 3 of us still in schooling time. Yesterday, every1 woke up early 7 sumthing, follow parents go for breakfast, dimsum.....then, came back do own stuff, mom got tuition, dad went out yam cha wit friends....nite dinner time, about 7 sumthing, we went to eat asam ikan pari, then to grandma house, then go buy supper wan tan mee....although we didnt eat very expensive or very ho liao...bt i like that kind of feeling when all of us were togehter, got talk got laugh......it made my day....
bt this morning, sis went back to kl d....got to work.....
Friday, August 21, 2009
I'm fine
Since now i'm at home, friends out there, dun worry, i'm fine. If u've been following the status on my facebook, mayb u had seen all my very stress status....
bt i'm fine d....thanks for ur concern.....have a nice day ...:)
bt i'm fine d....thanks for ur concern.....have a nice day ...:)
rules on the high way
Its FRIDAy....Holiday...wahahaa......thursday slept at 10.30...hoping to get enuf rest coz need to drive back to malacca......n the during the journey, there was rain-the very heavy type.....n there was also jam...kena twice....can be said...really tired....
Driving on highway has its own rules....sumtimes ppl said " driving on highway, straight road onli....very easy 1 lah'...actually to me, i dun think so....highway is the most dangerous if really kena "bang"!!!!
Here are a few rules that i would like to share:
1) use highlight when u want to overtake the very heavy o big vehicles....(or u can horn too)
2) after u overtake...make sure its a safe distance b4 u drive back into the second lane....
3) if u saw a car highlight u at the back when it was far....n u cant go back into the second lane....dun care the fella....just drive on until u are able to go into the second lane....
(i know sumtimes we will be piss off with these drivers because they almost kiss our "butt".....here's a suggestion, try to step on the break awhile to scare the hell out of the fella) lolx...bt this is not so recommended coz not the fella will scare too, u will scare oso....
4) when u are caught in the jam, u cant get out of it....so u stay...n dun stick too near to the front car...coz u dun wana kiss the fella's 'butt' rite/??
5) when the road is so damn blur n u really cant see the road due to the heavy rainfall, drive very very very very very slow....coz u'll never know that there will be a car in front of u until u see his break light, n i'm afraid that it will be too late for u to break if ur speeding...besides, there are waters on the road n the friction between the water n ur tyre will make ur car not in a straight line.....(1 more thing, turn on the light)
6) lastly, drive safely at 110km/j
These are from my experience of driving for 4 years....
happy driving!!!
Driving on highway has its own rules....sumtimes ppl said " driving on highway, straight road onli....very easy 1 lah'...actually to me, i dun think so....highway is the most dangerous if really kena "bang"!!!!
Here are a few rules that i would like to share:
1) use highlight when u want to overtake the very heavy o big vehicles....(or u can horn too)
2) after u overtake...make sure its a safe distance b4 u drive back into the second lane....
3) if u saw a car highlight u at the back when it was far....n u cant go back into the second lane....dun care the fella....just drive on until u are able to go into the second lane....
(i know sumtimes we will be piss off with these drivers because they almost kiss our "butt".....here's a suggestion, try to step on the break awhile to scare the hell out of the fella) lolx...bt this is not so recommended coz not the fella will scare too, u will scare oso....
4) when u are caught in the jam, u cant get out of it....so u stay...n dun stick too near to the front car...coz u dun wana kiss the fella's 'butt' rite/??
5) when the road is so damn blur n u really cant see the road due to the heavy rainfall, drive very very very very very slow....coz u'll never know that there will be a car in front of u until u see his break light, n i'm afraid that it will be too late for u to break if ur speeding...besides, there are waters on the road n the friction between the water n ur tyre will make ur car not in a straight line.....(1 more thing, turn on the light)
6) lastly, drive safely at 110km/j
These are from my experience of driving for 4 years....
happy driving!!!
Monday, August 17, 2009
Posing.....
Look....my hair grew long ady...wee......
I know its lame....bt this is the 1st time i see myself with long hair....i swear...i never have long hair b4....YYY????....coz my hand is too itchy, everytime, when it reached shoulder length, i would go n hv a new hairstyle....hahaha.....u know me gals......
So, how do i look with long hair???...should i try growing my hair long o NOT????
Many pose for camwhoring.....i like the mirror reflection the most...
oh ya, 4got to mention tat these extension were borrowed frm my fren...amy
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i like this tube dress....wat do u think???
:) V peace......
I know its lame....bt this is the 1st time i see myself with long hair....i swear...i never have long hair b4....YYY????....coz my hand is too itchy, everytime, when it reached shoulder length, i would go n hv a new hairstyle....hahaha.....u know me gals......
So, how do i look with long hair???...should i try growing my hair long o NOT????
Many pose for camwhoring.....i like the mirror reflection the most...
oh ya, 4got to mention tat these extension were borrowed frm my fren...amy
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i like this tube dress....wat do u think???
:) V peace......
Boring......
After the high tea...got so boring...mood swing i guess...not only me, vivian n my rumie too.....
at 8 sumthing pm, we decided to go to the opposite qb near seaside n take sum fresh air....
all the benches fully occupied....so we decided to sit on the grass....not bad actually, nx time we'll bring sleeping bag o tikar...haha...
so, we chatted, looking at other ppl dating, watching families walking around......n finally till 10pm, heard some loud motorbike sound, decided to balik d, coz mat rempit are here....
after that, 3 of us did felt better....
City Bayview High Tea
Yeah...went to city bayview hotel for high tea for onli RM 9.90++....cheap leh...frm 3-6pm
Mrs. Ong invited me over mainly i think because i bought a pressie for his son's graduation n together celebrate his son's graduation.
RM9.90 ++ food, so dun put so high hope lah...still the normal ones, friend rice, char kuey tiaw, all the goreng goreng snacks, puding, cakes, fruits, rojak, sandwiches....tea, coffee, or plain water....
eat untill quite full that day. hehe....then at 4.30, there's a live band...filipino - band name sugarbeat. 3 females, 1 fully male n 1 half male...meaning a guy who dress like a gal..
.
people, can u notice which 1 is the half male???...
His voice is very manly but too bad, wasted.......
tat was on saturday......so, tats the peak of my day......
Mrs. Ong invited me over mainly i think because i bought a pressie for his son's graduation n together celebrate his son's graduation.
RM9.90 ++ food, so dun put so high hope lah...still the normal ones, friend rice, char kuey tiaw, all the goreng goreng snacks, puding, cakes, fruits, rojak, sandwiches....tea, coffee, or plain water....
eat untill quite full that day. hehe....then at 4.30, there's a live band...filipino - band name sugarbeat. 3 females, 1 fully male n 1 half male...meaning a guy who dress like a gal..
.people, can u notice which 1 is the half male???...
His voice is very manly but too bad, wasted.......
tat was on saturday......so, tats the peak of my day......
Friday, August 14, 2009
Graduation...Convocation....
Its convocation period now!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! When will it be my turn???....oh my, cant wait.
Usm, MMu, Utar, n many more are having convocation now.
I didnt managed to attend any friends convocation this time, (not even attended any)...renee (mmu) coz in penang, not in malaca, this time rae(usm) also clash with my school time....bt nyways, i managed to meet her up on friday b4 she went back.
Still remember that, i got here (penang) a half year earlier than her, n now she grad 1st when i'm still having my last semester....Time really flies.....i was fetching her frm bus station, brought her to usm report, move into the new hostel with her mom....bla bla bla.....n now, she's smilling so sweetly n full with confidence when i saw her grad photos....rae: ur parents surely b very proud of ya!!!...n its too bad that ur sis n bros werent here...
ur so lucky to have found a job while so many graduates outside there are still jobless....
I wished to wish all my friends...HAPPY GRADUATES!!!...as i know this words also means, welcum to the hell time of working...i guess this would not apply to every1...only some.....
My convo is coming soon.....:)
Usm, MMu, Utar, n many more are having convocation now.
I didnt managed to attend any friends convocation this time, (not even attended any)...renee (mmu) coz in penang, not in malaca, this time rae(usm) also clash with my school time....bt nyways, i managed to meet her up on friday b4 she went back.
Still remember that, i got here (penang) a half year earlier than her, n now she grad 1st when i'm still having my last semester....Time really flies.....i was fetching her frm bus station, brought her to usm report, move into the new hostel with her mom....bla bla bla.....n now, she's smilling so sweetly n full with confidence when i saw her grad photos....rae: ur parents surely b very proud of ya!!!...n its too bad that ur sis n bros werent here...
ur so lucky to have found a job while so many graduates outside there are still jobless....
I wished to wish all my friends...HAPPY GRADUATES!!!...as i know this words also means, welcum to the hell time of working...i guess this would not apply to every1...only some.....
My convo is coming soon.....:)
Saturday, August 8, 2009
Edit....
Dunno why last nite i started to have this feeling of editting photos to black n white type. Check out my facebook for more editted photos, mayb 1 of u who is in my photos too....hehe...
Oh ya, my roomate were talking about taking a group of outdoor or studio photos, with those profesional taking the photos. Hmm, tats y i'm so in the mood. last nite editted till 12.30am...then just now, came back from school at 12.30, i started continue editting.....now i'm choosing a few photos to edit too...
I know the skill edit that i did are the basic, simple ones, bt i'm very happy to see all this photos because of what i done.
Oh ya, my roomate were talking about taking a group of outdoor or studio photos, with those profesional taking the photos. Hmm, tats y i'm so in the mood. last nite editted till 12.30am...then just now, came back from school at 12.30, i started continue editting.....now i'm choosing a few photos to edit too...
I know the skill edit that i did are the basic, simple ones, bt i'm very happy to see all this photos because of what i done.
Friday, August 7, 2009
5 things
What are the 5 things that makes you happy?
1. Babies
2. Traveling and hanging out with besties, buddies
3. Kid's laughter
4. Daddy, mommy, sister, me n brother together
5. Got praises
What are the 5 things you do to cheer yourself up when you're sad?
1. Listen to music
2. Take the car key and just drive around
3. Call some1 that i can talk to
4. Express in the blog
5. watch series and try not to think of the sad thing
What are your 5 favorite past time?
1. Series
2. Music and singing
3. Facebooking, blogging
4. looking back at the old photos, edit photos, memories refreshing
5. Snapping pictures
1. Babies
2. Traveling and hanging out with besties, buddies
3. Kid's laughter
4. Daddy, mommy, sister, me n brother together
5. Got praises
What are the 5 things you do to cheer yourself up when you're sad?
1. Listen to music
2. Take the car key and just drive around
3. Call some1 that i can talk to
4. Express in the blog
5. watch series and try not to think of the sad thing
What are your 5 favorite past time?
1. Series
2. Music and singing
3. Facebooking, blogging
4. looking back at the old photos, edit photos, memories refreshing
5. Snapping pictures
Deakin nite...settle
What i meant was that, i've done my job in asking who wanna go, and collecting money from those ppl.......
what i dun understand is that, y the malays dun wanna go?.....onli a very small numbers of ppl wanna go because they have the same thinking as mine......:
1) this will be the last year....we're not goin to have this kind of event in the future
2) even though there will be events like this, bt we, teachers have to wear batik o kurung....where can wear till like this......
just because there are so many ppl who doesnt wana go, then, these small numbers of malays not attending already too.....so, fine....
The chinese guys are like that too....okay, i'm speechless....u guys got ur own freedom. i cant force ppl to go.
All i wan is just that, let us enjoy our last moments here....tats all......some ppl wan go, bt they dun hv this kind of chance.
speechless.....
what i dun understand is that, y the malays dun wanna go?.....onli a very small numbers of ppl wanna go because they have the same thinking as mine......:
1) this will be the last year....we're not goin to have this kind of event in the future
2) even though there will be events like this, bt we, teachers have to wear batik o kurung....where can wear till like this......
just because there are so many ppl who doesnt wana go, then, these small numbers of malays not attending already too.....so, fine....
The chinese guys are like that too....okay, i'm speechless....u guys got ur own freedom. i cant force ppl to go.
All i wan is just that, let us enjoy our last moments here....tats all......some ppl wan go, bt they dun hv this kind of chance.
speechless.....
Tuesday, August 4, 2009
Saturday, August 1, 2009
H1N1
On last wednesday, after class, in the evening, tryin to focus on my assignments, suddenly chaos happened outside my room....everybody was talking, n my roomate was awake frm her nap too....."maktab kena quarantine, close , evey1 need to go home, do not stay at the college" this is the 1st statement that we got ....then, bising, chatting, talking, discusiing, finally, after 1 hour, warden came to our block to tell us tat, maktab quarantine til sunday...those who wanna go back, can go, but wit own transport, not public transport.....then, me n my roomate decided to go ipoh....i drive. went to find my bro, staying at my rummie's place. after the 3rd time goin to her house, finally i can recognise her place d. on Friday, another news, extended quarantine till tuesday coz confirm got 1 case. wednesday start class. mom called n ask me to go home, coz my bro is sick, n his college has suspected cases too......i was like" mom, seriously???"....n yeah, i reach home at 9.30 on friday.
Today is sunday, n i need to fetch my bro back, coz my bro is not allow to take bus back. My friend, ziyun following too.....2 days at home....cozy, but rushing.....used lotsa $$$, n no time for other stuff.......however, this 4 days off did few things......will upload photos later.....
H1N1 break are nice, but all my lesson plans kelam kabut d, assignments get to delay, back home, hang out wit friends n family, spent lotsa time wit bro.........bt wednesday still need to be back.....
Today is sunday, n i need to fetch my bro back, coz my bro is not allow to take bus back. My friend, ziyun following too.....2 days at home....cozy, but rushing.....used lotsa $$$, n no time for other stuff.......however, this 4 days off did few things......will upload photos later.....
H1N1 break are nice, but all my lesson plans kelam kabut d, assignments get to delay, back home, hang out wit friends n family, spent lotsa time wit bro.........bt wednesday still need to be back.....
Tuesday, July 28, 2009
cant wait for the weekend
yay, i cant wait for the weekend, for my bro to cum over, n kq n peki. hehe.....therefore, i'm working on my proposal which is about 40% done.
What i've been doin lately?....lesson plan, worksheets, assignments, my part time, n sleep.
What i've been doin lately?....lesson plan, worksheets, assignments, my part time, n sleep.
Saturday, July 25, 2009
i'm the 1 that she can think of......
Its 9 sumthing at nite, when i was just about to sit on my cozy little chair, in front of my precious laptop, and wanted to start doin my proposal, 'there's no boundaries........' (my ringtone)....
me: hello....
hema: hello, sze mei ar....where r u now???r u in the college???
me: ya ya.
hema: r u free now?...can u cum over to sg. nibung tapak pesta there....i'm in an accident!!!
me: wat???...u in accident???
hema: ya, many ppl around here now, i dunno these ppl.....
me: hema, u wait there, i go now
I got panicked too, i told my neighbour n called wee siang, a gentleman to follow along. so, 4 gals n 1 guy went. I cant help thinking its either hema kena langgar or she langgar orang.....
When i got there, we spotted her at the traffic light there. After i parked my car, we ran there ....found many indians n some malays surrounded her. Then, i just realised that she fell frm motor after kena snatch thief. She chase by speeding, n thats how she fell. She's covered wit blood, her chin, her hand , her leg. i was blank too, cant think much things to do, n they are so many ppl talking. (in tamil).....Mr. A said, take her to hospital for check up 1st, then later baru police report. Mr B ( malay) said wan him to help to repair motor anot. Mr. C said, motor just leave it 1st, later sum1 will help u to bring it to repair. Dun worry bout the money. Hema said, i dunno wat to do now. Then, we met sum1 who knows ppl frm rescam (indirectly a sum1 that we know) told us wat to do. called suhaili, our warden. wee siang went to drive the car here n we 6 person squeezed into my car, n wee siang drove us to GH. Hema didnt wanna told her parents, because the motor just reached, n she promised her dad tat she would ride in the college, not outside. If she's not telling her dad, her motor oso cant claim insurance too.
After that, suhaili waited wit me n hema, while the others drove the car back. There's many ppl in the emergency ward. So, i sat wit hema n wait for our turn to be called. When i was talking to her, i notice that there's a hole in her chin. when she was talking, her mouth moving, i can see the blood kept on dripping n her flesh or muscle moving. Ergh....i told her she sure need to jahit. she almost cried. i can see tears in her eyes.
We got into the room. There's a chinese houseman attended to our case. check every injury. Then, hema need to go for washing up her luka, xray n back to stitches. When hema heard the word stitches, she wanted to cry. Anyway, she did cry when the pegawai perubatan did the stiches. And of course i let her hold my hands, n calm her down. Besides, i actually hugged her when she needs an injection at her back( well, u know where i mean).
Before that, when we were back frm the xray, we waited for our turn to b jahit. i noticed tat there are many housemen. There's about 5 chinese guys n 1 chinese gal. there's this guy who looks like arabian, bt then he's not, i saw his name tag, peter ong. Obviously, a Chinese. Then i heard him talking to a patient in Hokkien sumore. Okay, he's 100% a chinese now. But he had a curly hair, very fair skin, like that mat salleh kind. he wore a mask, cant see his full face. he wanted to help in the stitches at 1st, bt after that, the assistant came to us and ask us to follow him. aih..miss it....( ya ya, i know, my fren is having a bloody hell of time there, n i still can hav time to look at guys sumore.) Hei, well, tats me...ok!!! :P
i asked hema, whether she really think of me 1st?....she said no, me 2nd. She called her kakak angkat 1st,then baru call me. She also said that, when she was about to call, she worried that i was still shoppin.....=.=''' ' hello, its 9 sumthing at nite, do u think i would still b shopping' - this means that, me in my friends heart, a shopping gal. i really bolat after hearing what she said. But anyway, i'm happy that i'm the 1 she thought of to call for help...So, i'm still sum1 who can be trusted. i'm so touched, Hema.
At last, we reached college at 12am. N her kakak angkat was here, n then, she settled everything on her own d.
I would like to apologise at here oso, that i didnt even think that she fell frm motor o kena snatch, but i thought of sumthing bad that she done first. Hema is a gal that many ppl dun really fancy her. i cant help it too.
me: hello....
hema: hello, sze mei ar....where r u now???r u in the college???
me: ya ya.
hema: r u free now?...can u cum over to sg. nibung tapak pesta there....i'm in an accident!!!
me: wat???...u in accident???
hema: ya, many ppl around here now, i dunno these ppl.....
me: hema, u wait there, i go now
I got panicked too, i told my neighbour n called wee siang, a gentleman to follow along. so, 4 gals n 1 guy went. I cant help thinking its either hema kena langgar or she langgar orang.....
When i got there, we spotted her at the traffic light there. After i parked my car, we ran there ....found many indians n some malays surrounded her. Then, i just realised that she fell frm motor after kena snatch thief. She chase by speeding, n thats how she fell. She's covered wit blood, her chin, her hand , her leg. i was blank too, cant think much things to do, n they are so many ppl talking. (in tamil).....Mr. A said, take her to hospital for check up 1st, then later baru police report. Mr B ( malay) said wan him to help to repair motor anot. Mr. C said, motor just leave it 1st, later sum1 will help u to bring it to repair. Dun worry bout the money. Hema said, i dunno wat to do now. Then, we met sum1 who knows ppl frm rescam (indirectly a sum1 that we know) told us wat to do. called suhaili, our warden. wee siang went to drive the car here n we 6 person squeezed into my car, n wee siang drove us to GH. Hema didnt wanna told her parents, because the motor just reached, n she promised her dad tat she would ride in the college, not outside. If she's not telling her dad, her motor oso cant claim insurance too.
After that, suhaili waited wit me n hema, while the others drove the car back. There's many ppl in the emergency ward. So, i sat wit hema n wait for our turn to be called. When i was talking to her, i notice that there's a hole in her chin. when she was talking, her mouth moving, i can see the blood kept on dripping n her flesh or muscle moving. Ergh....i told her she sure need to jahit. she almost cried. i can see tears in her eyes.
We got into the room. There's a chinese houseman attended to our case. check every injury. Then, hema need to go for washing up her luka, xray n back to stitches. When hema heard the word stitches, she wanted to cry. Anyway, she did cry when the pegawai perubatan did the stiches. And of course i let her hold my hands, n calm her down. Besides, i actually hugged her when she needs an injection at her back( well, u know where i mean).
Before that, when we were back frm the xray, we waited for our turn to b jahit. i noticed tat there are many housemen. There's about 5 chinese guys n 1 chinese gal. there's this guy who looks like arabian, bt then he's not, i saw his name tag, peter ong. Obviously, a Chinese. Then i heard him talking to a patient in Hokkien sumore. Okay, he's 100% a chinese now. But he had a curly hair, very fair skin, like that mat salleh kind. he wore a mask, cant see his full face. he wanted to help in the stitches at 1st, bt after that, the assistant came to us and ask us to follow him. aih..miss it....( ya ya, i know, my fren is having a bloody hell of time there, n i still can hav time to look at guys sumore.) Hei, well, tats me...ok!!! :P
i asked hema, whether she really think of me 1st?....she said no, me 2nd. She called her kakak angkat 1st,then baru call me. She also said that, when she was about to call, she worried that i was still shoppin.....=.=''' ' hello, its 9 sumthing at nite, do u think i would still b shopping' - this means that, me in my friends heart, a shopping gal. i really bolat after hearing what she said. But anyway, i'm happy that i'm the 1 she thought of to call for help...So, i'm still sum1 who can be trusted. i'm so touched, Hema.
At last, we reached college at 12am. N her kakak angkat was here, n then, she settled everything on her own d.
I would like to apologise at here oso, that i didnt even think that she fell frm motor o kena snatch, but i thought of sumthing bad that she done first. Hema is a gal that many ppl dun really fancy her. i cant help it too.
Thursday, July 23, 2009
Sunday, July 19, 2009
When will we ever learn?
Culture Cul De Sac
By Jacqueline Pereira
They say a teacher’s job is never done, but our columnist tells why she is done with teaching.
I NEVER wanted to be a teacher. Looking back now, it was a short, five-year career stint that began with a deliberately badly done entrance exam and a sulky monosyllabic interview.
I categorically stated that I did not want to teach. Yet I was accepted.
In the beginning, it all went well. The teacher training process was unexpectedly engaging. From tennis to trekking, English Literature and lesson planning, every day was an absorbing learning experience.
The assignments, though many, were creative and thought-provoking. Even better, we were located in the middle of Kuala Lumpur. With the thriving distractions the city offered in the late 1980s, college life was a party that did not end for two-and-a-half years.
Nevertheless, that first semester, my mates and I worked really hard at our coursework. All outings were put on hold while, in our cramped hostel rooms, we concentrated on passing our exams.
That was until we sat for the first paper. We simply couldn’t believe our luck. It was easy, and in the following semesters we wised up.We would sneak back into our hostels at 7am after another disco-crawl, then shower, change and dash into the halls to sit for our exams. And we graduated at the top of our class.
Thus, with armfuls of ideas, renewed enthusiasm and misguided (as I would find out later) idealism, the first few terms in a real school were very satisfying.
The makeshift library at the back of the classroom actually attracted students to read. The speak-English-only day saw students hesitantly trying out new words with their limited vocabulary. And I had a growing collection of gifts – stickers and used erasers.
So, despite not wanting to be a teacher, I greatly enjoyed the process of imparting knowledge to receptive young minds, testing their capabilities and truly appreciating the progress these students made by the end of each school year.
The teaching stint also presented me with opportunities to be creative and to experiment with teaching methods and tools to enhance the students’ learning experience.
Yet, eventually, all good intentions faded.
For a start, 80% of my coursemates could hardly speak English, let alone complete their assignments without help. We were supposedly destined to teach English as a Second Language in primary schools, yet more than half of the trainee teachers could barely string a sentence together correctly.
Then the exams for the trainee teachers became simpler. I now assume this was to keep pass rates high and meet the annual demand for new schoolteachers. Polarisation was rife, with most extra-curricular activities divided by race and religion.
The seeds of the dumbing down of education – learning just enough to pass exams and doing no more than required – were first sown in these batches of teachers before they even stepped into a classroom.
In the early months of the first year, beneath the watchful, though sometimes cynical eyes of the more experienced and jaded senior teachers, a fresh college graduate is safe. I, too, took my job quite seriously, and tried to, as the cliché now has it, “make a difference’’ in my students’ lives.
Until the length of my skirt was questioned (not a mini, mind you – the hem was on the knee instead of below). Then there were complaints that my tests were too difficult, my classes too noisy. Clearly, I did not fit the required mould.
As in any system, corrupt ways are hard to break, especially when they become routine: Purchasing workbooks from a certain vendor only; students receiving their questions before an exam; plum school positions and promotions given only to favourites.
That was almost two decades ago. But reading about the debates regarding our current education system and listening to the woes of parents, I can’t help but feel that perhaps not much has changed.
I’m not an educationist. Neither do I have authority. So I can only comment from experience. The culprits of a poor education system are many, but they do not include young students whose open and willing minds are closed to suit adult recalcitrance and incompetence.
The current debate and decision on teaching Maths and Science in Bahasa Malaysia is a prime example. I may be vilified for saying this, but in my opinion, the rot lies in the establishment that creates and perpetuates the education system and its teachers. Not in the students who are deemed unable to cope.
I could have been a good teacher, but I’m glad I got out when I did. The question is: why did the system accept me? And, more pertinently in the broader scheme of things: when are we going to start learning?
Extracted from The Start 19th July 2009
Science literasi competition
Last Saturday i went to help as a helper in organizing this competition. Lecturer called me to help. Help lor. I dressed casually while my other 4 friends dressed formally. Y i dressed casually, because i dun wanna look so mature, where they will b many secondary students coming for this competition.
Oh, i miss my school life after looking at them. They are also cuties ....hehe....mix blood 1 leh....damn, i'm too old for them.
Look at the 2 guys on the left side, they are really cute leh....hahaha... These group got 1st.
These are the gals who acted as the H1N1 virus, they are really good lah, they got 2nd place.What this competition about?...its about the students hv to find 1 issue about penang related to science, then they hav to act out (role play) to convey the msg that they wanted to tell. They're really cool lah. I wonder if there's any group in teacher college would be as sporting, creative n as gud as them?
The answer would b NO, if yes oso, onli <5 out of 100 ppl.
I miss my secondary life, i regretted that i didnt get the chance to involve in such kind of activities.
1 more points...
Period Unit Code Unit Name Status Mark Grade Achieved CP
2009/T1 EME424 PROFESSIONAL RELATIONSHIPS, PARTNERSHIPS AND RESEARCH COMPLETED 84 HD 1.000
2009/T1 EMM400 APPLICATIONS OF MATHEMATICS COMPLETED 79 D 1.000
2009/T1 EMP401 INTERNSHIP A COMPLETED 85 HD 1.000
2009/T1 EXM428 CITIZENSHIP STUDIES COMPLETED 83 HD 1.000
This is my result for last semester workload including exam n assignments. DAMN IT....79....1 more marks to reach HD (High Distinction)....Yer......always like that 1...
2009/T1 EME424 PROFESSIONAL RELATIONSHIPS, PARTNERSHIPS AND RESEARCH COMPLETED 84 HD 1.000
2009/T1 EMM400 APPLICATIONS OF MATHEMATICS COMPLETED 79 D 1.000
2009/T1 EMP401 INTERNSHIP A COMPLETED 85 HD 1.000
2009/T1 EXM428 CITIZENSHIP STUDIES COMPLETED 83 HD 1.000
This is my result for last semester workload including exam n assignments. DAMN IT....79....1 more marks to reach HD (High Distinction)....Yer......always like that 1...
Wednesday, July 15, 2009
my lil internship diary
Its been quite few days that i did not update the blog. Recently quite busy wit my internship stuff. stay back late at school, activities, lesson plans, etc etc etc. So, if u guys are interested in knowing how my internship life, pls keep urself updated wit www.shar0nm3i.blogspot.com - my lil internship diary
Sunday, July 12, 2009
The day has come
The day has come.......which means the final practicum that every1 has been worrying about since the 1st day enter college has come. I dunno about the other ppl, bt to me, yes i'm worried.
5 years ago, when i first entered the college in Ipoh, our senior were doing their final practicum where we can see they look so mature, everyday, they were doing their lesson plan, ABM (alat bantu mengajar), at nite you can also see they practising wat they gonna teach in front of the mirror. I still remembered, there was 1 day college having blackout, some seniors were shouting n grumbling that they havent finished their lesson plan. Some were so busy looking and asking for candles. I also saw 1 senior practising her speech in her dark room, in front of the mirror, when i was passing by her room. Well, now i guess it would b my, our turn to go through all these.
There's another issues which were, the JPP incharge of our orientation warned us the very first day we reached there, saying that we have to b quite and dun ever disturb the seniors who will b very tired goin through their practicum. And some of the seniors happened to b staying on the 2nd floor, n we all newbies the 3rd floor. Sometimes, we got excited and forgot, so, we made noises, and lastly, the seniors, had to come out and warned us....haha...unforgetable......however, now it will b our turn to scold or warn juniors.....last saturday, when the sky isnt bright yet, the ground floor junior in my block start doin some aerobic wit so loud music, and laughing so loud, i looked at my clock, its not even 8.30 yet...hellloooooo......grrrr.......i was so angry, i opened my door, and stared at them, bt they didnt notice o didnt even care to notice. i'm not sure bout that. Bt, 1 thing for sure, when my internship starts, i will really blast them kao kao...if they gets on my nerves.....
5 years ago, when i first entered the college in Ipoh, our senior were doing their final practicum where we can see they look so mature, everyday, they were doing their lesson plan, ABM (alat bantu mengajar), at nite you can also see they practising wat they gonna teach in front of the mirror. I still remembered, there was 1 day college having blackout, some seniors were shouting n grumbling that they havent finished their lesson plan. Some were so busy looking and asking for candles. I also saw 1 senior practising her speech in her dark room, in front of the mirror, when i was passing by her room. Well, now i guess it would b my, our turn to go through all these.
There's another issues which were, the JPP incharge of our orientation warned us the very first day we reached there, saying that we have to b quite and dun ever disturb the seniors who will b very tired goin through their practicum. And some of the seniors happened to b staying on the 2nd floor, n we all newbies the 3rd floor. Sometimes, we got excited and forgot, so, we made noises, and lastly, the seniors, had to come out and warned us....haha...unforgetable......however, now it will b our turn to scold or warn juniors.....last saturday, when the sky isnt bright yet, the ground floor junior in my block start doin some aerobic wit so loud music, and laughing so loud, i looked at my clock, its not even 8.30 yet...hellloooooo......grrrr.......i was so angry, i opened my door, and stared at them, bt they didnt notice o didnt even care to notice. i'm not sure bout that. Bt, 1 thing for sure, when my internship starts, i will really blast them kao kao...if they gets on my nerves.....
Saturday, July 11, 2009
Tuesday, July 7, 2009
bloggiNG
What i've been up to lately???....
1) trying to clear up my external hardisk coz there's so many series tertangguh....
2) had enuf of shopping d....still got a few left
3) Got to control my shopping mood
4) got to control my mood swing too
5) have been goin for an evening jog at least 3 times a week...hope to make it consistent as i can
6) has been thinking of ways to approach student nx week for the 1st lesson
7) been trying to get rid a few thinking that bothers me....
tats all for now
1) trying to clear up my external hardisk coz there's so many series tertangguh....
2) had enuf of shopping d....still got a few left
3) Got to control my shopping mood
4) got to control my mood swing too
5) have been goin for an evening jog at least 3 times a week...hope to make it consistent as i can
6) has been thinking of ways to approach student nx week for the 1st lesson
7) been trying to get rid a few thinking that bothers me....
tats all for now
Sunday, July 5, 2009
He's js not that into u.......
Its the title of a movie......revolve around a few couple who are having problems in their relationship, examples,
1) there's a couple who has been in relationship for 7 years, bt the guy didnt wanna get marry, n the gal ask for divorce if he didnt wanna get marry....
2) another couple who were just married, i guess........the guy met a blonde hair gal at a handy shop and started to have affair,n wanted to get rid of his wife which means wan to divorce with his wife...
3) there's a gal named Mary who meet guys on myspace...i mean not literally meeting each other but video call each other.....n always get excited easily when a guy myspace her...meaning msging her on myspace....tats so ....=,='''
4) another single gal name gigi who always have the wrong signal or interpret wrongly about guys liking her. She always go for blind dates. Her first blind dates name Connor. She also embarassed herself sumtimes. N to me, she looks so damn desperate about having a bf.......
Lets js skip to the end of the story, :
1) the couple broke off for awhile, n the gal finally back wit the guy because she realised that he is like a husband to her more than a real married husband. What i meant was that, during her breaking off, she stayed with her family members, n her sisters' husbands all sucks, they onli know how to drink beer, watch sports, n do ntg at home not like her bf who cleans up the house, doin housechores,...at last, they got married n the guy proposed to her....yay.....happy ending.
2) At 1st, the husband tells the truth about his affair n expected the wife to want him out....however, the wife tries to make everything back together until finally, she cant stand that he actually lied to her about his smoking which lead her to divorce him...n he also didnt get back wit the mistress too.
3) Mary finally realised that the myspace guy are not as good as they think because he cheated mary. N lastly, she met Connor, a guy whom she is working with, bt havent met face to face yet. N finally they met at a cafe, n chatted happily which lead to a healthy relationship.
4) Gigi met Alex through Connor...(complicated, watch the movie if u wan to know how she met alex) ...Gigi at first take alex as her relationship consultant in handling n understand more about men. Bt finally, gigi thinks that alex likes her, n hurl herself to him...bt alex stopped her, n said gals always like to hallucinate that guys like her when they are doing sumthing nice....however, gigi was right actually, n gigi stopped contacting alex for quite a long time, n alex misses her so much n tries to make up wit her. a happy ending too.
Few words from the guys which is the signal of him dislike u:
i) nice to meet u (at the end of the date)
ii) the only happy hour is u (when u met a guy during happy hour)...even when he gives his name card ...he's not interested in u....
iii) If a guy says ' ur his favourite female since him mum' (.....de....wat kind of guys compare u n his mom...plz)
iv) after meeting for 1 week, he doesnt call...................If a guy doesnt call u, means he doesnt want to call u....( js face it, gigi)...
1) there's a couple who has been in relationship for 7 years, bt the guy didnt wanna get marry, n the gal ask for divorce if he didnt wanna get marry....
2) another couple who were just married, i guess........the guy met a blonde hair gal at a handy shop and started to have affair,n wanted to get rid of his wife which means wan to divorce with his wife...
3) there's a gal named Mary who meet guys on myspace...i mean not literally meeting each other but video call each other.....n always get excited easily when a guy myspace her...meaning msging her on myspace....tats so ....=,='''
4) another single gal name gigi who always have the wrong signal or interpret wrongly about guys liking her. She always go for blind dates. Her first blind dates name Connor. She also embarassed herself sumtimes. N to me, she looks so damn desperate about having a bf.......
Lets js skip to the end of the story, :
1) the couple broke off for awhile, n the gal finally back wit the guy because she realised that he is like a husband to her more than a real married husband. What i meant was that, during her breaking off, she stayed with her family members, n her sisters' husbands all sucks, they onli know how to drink beer, watch sports, n do ntg at home not like her bf who cleans up the house, doin housechores,...at last, they got married n the guy proposed to her....yay.....happy ending.
2) At 1st, the husband tells the truth about his affair n expected the wife to want him out....however, the wife tries to make everything back together until finally, she cant stand that he actually lied to her about his smoking which lead her to divorce him...n he also didnt get back wit the mistress too.
3) Mary finally realised that the myspace guy are not as good as they think because he cheated mary. N lastly, she met Connor, a guy whom she is working with, bt havent met face to face yet. N finally they met at a cafe, n chatted happily which lead to a healthy relationship.
4) Gigi met Alex through Connor...(complicated, watch the movie if u wan to know how she met alex) ...Gigi at first take alex as her relationship consultant in handling n understand more about men. Bt finally, gigi thinks that alex likes her, n hurl herself to him...bt alex stopped her, n said gals always like to hallucinate that guys like her when they are doing sumthing nice....however, gigi was right actually, n gigi stopped contacting alex for quite a long time, n alex misses her so much n tries to make up wit her. a happy ending too.
Few words from the guys which is the signal of him dislike u:
i) nice to meet u (at the end of the date)
ii) the only happy hour is u (when u met a guy during happy hour)...even when he gives his name card ...he's not interested in u....
iii) If a guy says ' ur his favourite female since him mum' (.....de....wat kind of guys compare u n his mom...plz)
iv) after meeting for 1 week, he doesnt call...................If a guy doesnt call u, means he doesnt want to call u....( js face it, gigi)...
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